Weeks
Dear L. Weeks,
It’s a rainy Saturday evening and I’m cooped up (decidedly) in what is actually a quite lovely 2 bedroom apartment in Woodland Hills. I’m pushing words out on a screenplay that will ultimately decide a whole course of fate for my future, and I can’t help but look back at my favorite times, those in writing workshops. Well, at least yours.
I always fretted as a writer learning to become a writer. I became hesitant to create because I felt like every action held such meaning, and I had no mastery of anything in the world. I’d write what I wanted and adapt it for my assignments, but I’d never edit or proofread. I was lazy. I never considered myself for a position as a writer, I merely beheld my musings lovingly as an interested hobby, with the full intention of striking it rich as an heir or lottery winner.
When I realized that my greatest passions could be potentially slain when entering a field of work concentrating solely on them, I was crushed. Once bitten, twice shy. Aware of this now, I bite my lip as I try and demonstrate my “ability to command dialog” to a perfect stranger who may “consider me for hiring.” Can I create on command? Will this job actually work for me? The short answer is yes. Dialog-driven plots are banal and simple… I hate them.
It’s when I look around myself that I truly realize how lucky I am. Truly. I wish I could just face to face, and say to you “Holy shit. This is all real.” And it is because I didn’t realize it at the time that your ability to teach craft was going to fester and burn inside me with a genuine product.
There is a moment somewhere between being young, and being an adult where this statement changes dramatically. “I want to imitate who I admire” becomes “I want to admire who I imitate.” And so be it, while I choose to never let my dreams go unrecognized (choking back dismay, whatever) I am now pleased with who I am. But why? Is it because I can (barely) afford rent each month? Cook fantastically? Walk to work? Keep a clean, and tidy home? No. None of these things. In actuality, it is because I have this laptop open with four pages of a screenplay written and I pace the living room back and forth, and get caught up in a million little things between each carefully punctuated and indented paragraph, and think “Damn. What do you think Laurie Weeks is doing right now?”
And I have no idea. NY? LA? SD? Tragic, truly tragic. So once this letter finds you, you’ll have to tell me what is up.
As for myself, I got a job playing Guitar Hero a couple years ago, they decided I was awesome and invited me to hop on. Sadly, all the writing I do is squandered on database entries and technical jargon. But as the climate so warrants, I’m also facing down the wrong end of a giant lay-off stick prodding in my direction. (Hence the job seeking intonation previously strewn).
I’m 25, and I remember it like it was yesterday and you said something to the effect of “my classroom is a place of love.” We fell in love with you. We fell in love with each other. And God, does it feel strangely absent now…
…because we all gotta make a living in a fascist society.
Much love,